Cyber

Welcome to my palace
The unreal world
The place of symbols and matrix
Passing time and momentum
Running around uncontrolled

No words from mine are truth
For my smile is just a pixel
And my heart beats like machine
Since your icon no longer exists

Do you want to chat with me?
I am just a cyber
An empty space between spaces
A bar and a line
Straight and broke and end
When you put me on a pedestal
Leave this imagination for a milisecond
To the world of trees and human

But no, not me
I am too scared of reality
Not ready yet
Not brave enough
To touch your face

I’ll stay here I'm okay
Staying alive with dead monitors
Until my skin can feel
The soil and the sky
And the love of yours

dibuat entah kapan oleh val

Still lokking for placement

Quite a hard day today. Not because I'm workin' on somethin.. but because i need to rethink about a lot of things. I really really want to go back to indo for this summer holiday but i haven't found placement yet. The thing is if i want to go, i have to pay for the ticket tomorrow [payment day ><']!!! But if I decide to go for this holiday, it's too risky because *fool me* the return date is on August 29 while the placement starts +/- on September 1. fuh!

I called my mom and she said that i have to focus more on placement. I shouldn't worry about going home and stuffs. Well, i know it for sure that my family desperately want me to go home and i also want to celebrate my birthday back home with my family. If only i could find placement... things will surely be easier.

Gambarumasu!!!!

p.s. cool site ;) www.2advanced.com

background baruw

Duh.. sakit sebadan2 nih! [istilahnya uya: njarem] apapun itu...
tadi pagi sie gpp.. kok pas rada siangan jadi sakit yah? kelamaan ga jalan sih, sekalinya jalan ga brenti2 hueheuheu.
Emang butuh olahraga...
Hasil keras hari ini... blog dengan background baroe ^^ suka!
uds uds mo maen text twistnya yahoo games lagie.

Shopping! yesterday!

Fiuh.... yesterday was a very exhausting day. gimana engga... jalan selama *hum...* 8 stengah jam!! mana pake boots lagi. Cape bgts.. gue ampe ga bisa jalan lagi. But yesterday was fun. Soalnya udah lamaaaaa bgt ga jalan ke Ams [apalagi cama yayank, kerja muluw sie...], udah berapa bulan yah *exaggerating*?

Jadinya kemaren tuh jalan ma bea sama yokko, muter2, blanja2 "summer sale" hehehhehe.. yokko blanja kaos 'n jeans di WE trus beli iket pinggang di VET, bea bli kutungan bubbles [lutu] sama rok mini *bayaaaaangkan saudara2!!!!* di Berschka [they have a nice website]. Gue sendiri dapet 2 baju yang dari dulu gue pengen >> ga sempat beli >> balik lagi ke tokonya >> udah keabisan!! Nah pas kemaren itu kok bisa2nya si bea nemu baju yang gue pengen banget itu [Berschka] dengan harga murah lagi.. *tangisan bahagia* langsung beli deeeeh. Baju yang satunya lagi dapet di Zara, dulu liatnya di Zara Den Haag, kaos print2an simple yang valent bgt ;p. I love Zara!

Oia.. pas di Zara gue ama bea *iseng* nyoba gaun pesta keren [turun jadi 40e gitu]. di coba ama bea tapi ga muat [di bagian toket heuheuhe] padahal udah maat 40 gitu. Trus gue coba muat [punggung bea kan lebih lebar dari punggung gue] walopun agak2 terlalu meng-expose toket *tuink2!* Anehnya lagi pas kita liat baek2, itu baju kok rada kerut2 di bagian belakang n bagian bawah dada yah? Finally we decided that the dress is made for women with flat breast hauhauhauhauhuhuahua. Garink tapi bener de kayaknya... nasib2.

Anak Bumi

Di antara gunung-gunung aku berada
dalam gaungnya aku bersuara
"semuaaaa....lihat aku!"
"aku ini anak bumi."
lalu pangkal cemara yang baru ditebang tertawa
"kau ini hanya manusia biasa."
"cuma bicara."
"tanpa punya sedikit asa."
"tolong diam saja."
"beri ketenangan pada sisaku yang hampir mati."

Dekat akar-akar tuanya aku rebahkan kepala
"aku mendengar detakmu, cemara tua..."
tidak ada jantung dalamku ucapnya
"tapi aku merasa hidupmu..."
"sendiri, sampai beberapa saat lalu"
dan akan tetap sendiri sampai nanti ujarnya
"tak mungkin, karena ada aku."
"tak mungkin, karena ada natal di sekitarmu."
aku hanya sebagai kayu api sanggahnya
"dan hangatmu menidurkan anak manusia."
"baramu menyatukan keluarga."
sisaku hanya abu tuturnya
"abu yang telah memberi kebahagiaan?"
"adalah abu yang istimewa..."

"sisa tuaku tenang sekarang, anak manusia..."
bukan, aku anak bumi sanggahku
karena ibundaku sang gaia
karena rumput alas kakiku
karena angin dan bunga pakaianku
dan air cerminku
"sisa tuaku tertawa sekarang, anak bumi..."
"mungkin kita bisa berbincang suatu kali

Lalu kaki kecilku berlari
berlari menuju guaku
di dalamnya ku berbaring nyaman
sesaat sebelum sang purnama bernyanyi
"tidurlah kau, anak bumiku..."

dibuat 30 Dec 03, 2.44 a.m. oleh val

netgamez.nl.... duh!

Ceritanya kmrn tuh yokko, ardy, 'n anak2 eridani mauw tanding CS [game tembak2an yg akan menimbulkan suara dashyat dari mulut mereka yang bermain] di Home Boxx, Nieuwgein Noord --> deket Utrecht sono.. klo ga salah 35 euro gituh. tapi emang sukaannya mereka kok... ya uds ><' *duitnya.. huhuhuhuhu...*

Kmrn tuh rencananya si ardy bakal ke rumah jam 5an [p.m.]... barengan ama yokko perginya ke sono naek train, sementara PC2 mereka bakal naek mobilnya jeff. masa PC yang naek mobil coba? tapi yah.. bagi mereka PC itu dewa *ampun deh!*

Somethin' happened! si ardy emang udah dateng, udah pake acara blanja2 makanan di Super De Boer [suplai makanan di sono], liat2 suasana Kruidenhof yang kedatengan walikota *diemen?*, ngedengerin orang nyanyi Que Sera Sera ala trance [melanggar hak cipta!!], tidur pulez, makan kripik nangka yang di bawain silvi [makasih, sil], de es be. TAPI, jeff-nya ga dateng2 ampe jam 9 malem! gila aja.. soalnya yokko 'n ardi bilang klo tandingnya mulai jam 9 malem. duenk! ga bule, ga indo, sama aja telatnya. akhirnya jam 9 lewat dikit, si jeff sampe kruidenhof buat ngangkut PC2 mereka.. bantal2 buat bobo, suplai makanan, 'n kasurnya ardy! ><'ribet amat, sumpah...

Baru beberapa saat lalu, gue ngobs sama yokko lewat msn [bisa msn-an, tapi ga bisa nge net]...kata yokko harusnya gamenya udah mulai tadi jam 8 tapi ardi sama jeff masih tidur *gelo!* rada aneh sie peraturannya, tapi itu gpp asal mereka bisa selesai maen seblom jam 14.30. speechless nie... klo gue ikutan dateng ke situ bisa stress sendiri kali yak. huah.

Nothing left to say..
Good luck aja deh, guys!

baroe jadi ^^

hore
baru bikin
garink ah!
mo nulis apa lagi yah?

Blurry!!

Everything's so blurry and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you... I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone, you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing... imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face

Everyone is changing there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you... I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone, you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing... imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway

Lost in Space

Sometimes, I get tired of this me first attitude
You are the one thing, that keeps me smiling
That's why I'm always wishing hard for you...
'Cos your life shines so bright
I don't feel no solitude
You are my first, star at night
I'd be lost in space without you!!

And I'll never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do

Feels, just so fine
When we touch the sky me and you
This is my idea of heaven
Why can't it always be so good...
But it's alright, I know your out there
Doing what you've gotta do
You are my soul satellite
I'd be lost in space without you!!!

And I'll never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do
I'll never lose my faith in you
I'll never lose my faith in you...

U got it bad

When you feel it in your body
You found somebody who makes you change your ways
Like hanging with your crew
Said you act like you're ready
But you don't really know
And everything in your past - you wanna let it go

I've been there, done it, fucked around
After all that - this is what I found
Nobody wants to be alone
If you're touched by the words in this song
Then baby...

U got, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad

When you say that you love 'em
And you really know
Everything that used to matter, don't matter no more
Like my money, all my cars (You can have it all back)
Flowers, cards and candy (I do it just cause I'm...)
Said I'm fortunate to have you girl
I want you to know
I really adore you
All my people who know what's going on
Look at your mate, help me sing my song
Tell her I'm your man, you're my girl
I'm gonna tell it to the whole wide world
Ladies say I'm your girl, you're my man
Promise to love you the best I can

See I've been there, done it, fucked around
After all that - this is what I found
Everyone of y'all are just like me
It's too bad that you can't see
That you got it bad...hey

U got, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad...

Santa Baby (Ost. Monalisa Smile)

Santa baby, just slip a sable under the tree, for me
...Been an awful good girl
Santa baby, hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa baby, a fifty-four convertible too, light blue
I'll wake up for you dear
Santa baby, hurry down the chimney tonight

Think of all the fun I've missed
Think of all the fellas that I haven't kissed
Next year I could be just as good
If you'd check off my Christmas list

Santa baby, I want a yacht and really that's not a lot
...Been an angel all year
Santa baby, hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa honey, one little thing I really need, the deed
To a platinum mine
Santa baby, hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa cutie, I'll fill my stocking with a duplex, and checks
Sign your 'X' on the line
Santa baby, hurry down the chimney tonight

Come and trim my Christmas tree
With some decorations bought at Tiffany's
I really do believe in you
Let's see if you believe in me too

Santa baby, forgot to mention one little thing, a ring
I don't mean a phone
Santa baby, hurry down the chimney tonight

Hurry down the chimney tonight
Oh yeah
Hurry down the chimney tonight!!

Fallen

I can't believe it, you're a dream comin' true
I can't believe how I have fallen for you
And I was not looking, was content to remain
And it's ironic to be back in the game

You are the one who's led me to the sun
How could I know that I was lost without you...

And I want to tell you, you control my rain...
And you should know that you are life in my veins

You are the one who's led me to the sun
How could I know that I was lost without you...

I can't believe it, you're a dream comin' true
I can't believe how I have fallen for you

And I was not looking, was content to remain
And it's erotic to be back in the game