This is us

this is us.

we are the reason.
we don't make us happen.

we are the boy and the girl who sits on the sideways.
i sit here. you sit there.
facing each other, fronting, loving.

we sit on the sideways for the road is too dangerous.
nature does not allow me to crossover to your side, nor you to mine.
one may be hit by a car and die, leaving the other one in pain, in vain.

the road will never be kind to us,
so we sit on the sideways.

watching everyone goes by,
the moon the sun the stars the ticking clock
watching you, watching me.

waiting for the perfect moment
when everything stop
one split second when we can eventually be.

so we don't sleep, we won't blink.
we stay awake, we stay untouched.

we are our boundaries.
we don't make us happen.

Have yourself a 500 days of summer

"This is a story of boy meets girl. But you should know upfront, this is not a love story."
- deep voice narrator

If i say that I'm in love with the movie 500 days of summer... i'm not exaggerating.

I am both Tom Hanson and Summer Finn.
I am the believer and the non-believer.


The movie is (so far) the essence and the sum up of my way of thinking towards what most people call love... (while Garden State is my perception of home - but we are not talking about that marvelous movie here). The flipping scenes of the happy moments and the not so happy moments lead my brain to re-open some old memories, re-live some present memories, and re-mind me of all of the things i want for my future: simply, someone who i can love and love me in return unconditionally for the rest of my life.

blah!
a slap in the face.

"Ah, it's is so cliche!!!" you might say.

But when one know how bitter i can be in person, one may think that i have gone loco.
I say - love is the most difficult thing that one can possess! It is an out-of-this-world kind of ability, a behaviour so advanced it takes you your whole life to master. and therefore, to be able to find the "significant other" that matches one's basic ability to love would be a blessing. hell of a luck!
To be honest - how many people who get married or get together just because "he can provide shelter and a good life for me and my big extended family" or "i tend to love young girl" or "love will grow between us, any time soon now" or any other reasons - just to find that their love is forced and one-sided?

I once read on the web: "There are 6 billions souls in the world. You just need one soul for the rest of your life"
-- and people actually think it's easy to find that one particular soul?
now that, we can call bullshit!

Be blessed my friends, if you are among the tiniest amount of people in this over-consumptive over-exaggerating prejudice world who get together for the reason of "just because..." and fell speechless there. For you might have been given the chance to experience life to its fullest!

Amen to that.

♫ And if a double-decker bus crashes into us
To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten ton truck kills the both of us
To die by your side... well the pleasure, the privilege is mine ♫
The Smiths — There Is A Light That Never Goes Out

Love = Bad Stain

Love is like a bad stain that stays.


i mean... well, you know what i mean...

a sneak peek of Ingrid's new song

Anybody know Ingrid Michaelson?
She's one of my favourite artists.

Anyway, here's a new demo song from her. I got the feed from her twitter update today ;)

Walk Away

I was there to comfort you
to tell you things that were not true
like love and how its always here and never goes
so don’t you fear

but i really know that forevers they come and go
so i hold on tight to letting go
because i don't know when this,
when this, love will walk away.

i am here to see us fall
to see us slide right down the wall
i give up and take on something new
take on someone who is just like you

Deep and beautiful lyric as always...
Wanna take a peek of the new song?
Just go to her blog http://ingridmichaelson.tumblr.com/

Cant wait for her new album to come out!

Makes me wanna say something romantic like:
I like the way your fingers run through my hairs...
hehehe :)

for the love of life

sshhh...
hush hush...

take my solemn hand and run with me
shall the daunting wind and the wobbly road pass us by
as vivid as moving images we fly

my pounding heart
your heavy breath
my fingers twirl in your hair
softly, sinfully, gracefully

write me a letter, i'm your friend
burn me with your words of desires
fascinate me with you dazzling thoughts
make me cry, make me die

no one's ever ready for life.

4-Minutes Love Song

the air is cold and gray and lonely
my weeping heart beats differently
how can i be both sad and jolly?

my gaze screams my longing
my body shivers my deepest desires
my lips trembles my yearning
yet my stiffs arms clutch nothing but thin air

i wait and i ache and i blush

i fell too deep to your kiss and your ignorance
of all people, of all people...

you cause the fire in my burning dreams

your presence is my addiction
your smile is unbearable
your absence is my torture

for my words have been taken from me
this melodies can't keep me at ease

of all feelings, of all feelings...
i wonder what could this be?

Tell me where it hurts

I just came to realize the connectivity between this song and my life :)
Is it possible that it's caused by my incredible headache?
What an absurd thinking.

Anyway, for those who are curious enough to understand what the hell am i blabbering about, here's the lyric.

- - -
Garbage - Tell me where it hurts

What is my day going to look like?
What will my tomorrow bring me?
If I had x-ray eyes, I could see inside
I wouldn’t have to predict the future

I wish that you would do with some talking
How else am I to know what you’re thinking?
If only people would say what it really was
What it really was
What it really was that they wanted

Tell me where it hurts
to hell with everybody else
All I care about is you
and that's the truth
They don't love me; I can tell
But you do, so they can go to hell

Did they ever give you a reason
To believe in something different
If you’re looking for love, for what it's worth
I have plenty of it lying around here somewhere

If you are looking for disappointment
You can find it around any corner
In the middle of the night I hold on to you tight
So both of us can feel protected

Tell me where it hurts,
to hell with everybody else.
All I care about is you and that's the truth
they don't love me; yeah I can tell
but you do, so they can go to hell

I’ve been loved but I didn’t know how to feel it
And I’ve been adored but I don’t know if I ever believed it
I’ve been loved my whole life but I didn’t know how to take it
Until you

So tell me where it hurts
to hell with everybody else
All I care about is you and that's the truth
they don't love me, yeah I can tell
But you do, so they can go to hell
But you do, so they can go to hell

Tell me where it hurts, tell me where it hurts
Tell me where it hurts now, tell me where it hurts...

- - - -

And here's the clip!

Most Awesomely Bad Love Songs

Our daily lives is filled with love songs - the all-time-greatest ones, the super duper cheesy ones, the bad-but-got-stuck-in-your-head-all-the-time ones, the sexy ones, the teenage-kind-of-cute ones, and so on, and so on.

Love songs are itchy.. yet inevitable. We human can't avoid it; it's human nature to love love songs - it's the air the we breathe, it's the food that we eat. It's contagious!

Should we surrender to its power and be mellow and mushy all the time? HA! NO!
We may love love songs. But there's nothing wrong with mocking them, too.
So today i decided to get stumbled with this different interpretation of love songs :P

"Most Awesomely Bad Love Songs" VH1 version
*actually there are 40, but I'm just gonna write down the top 10. As the countdown subtly changes are viewers votes coming, i should say that the top 10 is not definite.

10 Heaven by Warrant

9 When You Close Your Eyes by Night Ranger

8 Truly Madly Deeply by Savage Garden
Hey i do love this love song! YES i know the lyric is overrated. "I'll be your dreams, I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy... I'll be your hope, I'll be love, be everything that you need..." A woman can surely do that. But how on earth can a man bear all of those thing just to be with his woman? HAHAHA what a big fat lie.

7 Get Here by Oleta Adams

6 The Search Is Over by Survivor

5 You're the Inspiration by Chicago
Chicago with their high-pitch voice did inspire many people back then :P Oh my oh my peter cetera. I do remember to link them with "Like a knight in shinning armor, from a long time ago... Take you to my castle fly away..." Wake up wake up. Life and love? Not that cute.

4 God Must Have Spent a Little More Time on You by *NSYNC

3 Joanna by Kool & the Gang

2 Is This Love by Whitesnake

1 Hero by Enrique Iglesias
Hahahahaha Enrique! He's not the master of cheesy and awesomely bad love songs... Yet he's overact persona in this song [you gotta see the clip then] is the one that makes the song awesomely bad. Well, the lyric, too, is a little bit too much for me personally. The whole "I can be your hero baby, I can take away the pain..." thing is full of bullshit!

Read more, listen more on VH1 page here.

So, do you have your own version of "Most Awesomely Bad Love Songs"? ;)
share them.

Quotes from Patch Adams

The followings are no poems of mine.
These are several quotes taken from a movie, Patch Adams [1998]:


I love you without knowing how,
or when, or from where...
I love you straightforwardly without complexities or pride.
I love you because I know no other way then this.
So close that your hand, on my chest, is my hand.
So close, that when you close your eyes, I fall asleep.

Death. To die. To expire. To pass on. To perish. To peg out.
To push up daisies. To push up posies. To become extinct.
Curtains, deceased, Demised, departed And defunct.
Dead as a doornail. Dead as a herring. Dead as a mutton. Dead as nits.
The last breath. Paying a debt to nature. The big sleep.
God's way of saying, "Slow down."

Smashed

it's when your infinite freedom is taken! it's when you hit the very bottom of reality. now you live without hope nor dream nor courage. the hope of your love, the dream of being what you have always wanted to be, and the courage to move on. They screw your mind and emotion just to break you apart.. to scatter you into worthless pieces.

It's hard... to live that way. It's like a hundred ton of sharp objects on your shoulder when you have to cross an old wingly"bergoyang" bridge with endless cliff below you or a long winding road full of rocky trashes. when you fall, they'll cut you nicely.

it's hard because nobody want to be chained, prisoned... especially you, my beloved.
but you shall not give up you life away. For there'll be rainbow after rain, there'll also be a gift you'll receive after your sufferings. For a freedom cannot be taken from one... it stays in your heart as long as you believe its existence. Don't you wander alone, because i'll be there and comfort you. i'll catch your falls despite of my invisibility. keep you warm in my arms though my body crash.

it's hard for me to undo my arms around you and let you go. it's hard to see your tears instead of your smile. it's hard for enfold our sweet memories and throw it away.

Since waiting for you is forever and that's what i'm gonna do.